Backstabbing becoming a norm  in this school..Ya Allah,give me courage to go through this.

Terung..what happened to you?How can your turn your way around?But you,yourself know that you can't break me apart.As long I have confidence in me i'll make sure you can't harm me..i'll stay strong..

All that i want right now is to get out from that..i guess the exact word to describe that school are DIFFICULT. They are so matured in social life but in real life,behavior,and they way they think,they are just like a bunch of toddlers.

What in the world that i think when i'm begging my mom to transfer me to this pre school -like-high school.Maybe i don't have the right to wrote like this..but i can't stand this anymore.

Both of my best friends only stayed in this school for a year before they transfer back to their old school..they are just like me before entering this school they are a student of a well-known school..so that why we became friends..

But they managed to escape from this Azkaban while me still here,stucked with over-aged toddlers..
    Macam-macam aku nak cite kat kau.First pasal aku,teera and atul.Kitorang ade buat study group.And sangat best sebab kitorang betul-betul study.Kitorang tak nak syazana n iman ade sebab nanti tak blaja.Kitorang tige orang cukuplah.

    Pastu pasal panjang,dye im iman pasal nak rujuk dngan aku,aku text dye ckp stakat nak rujuk ngan aku sal nak balas dendam kat ex dye tayah.And panjang marah along sebab ckp along rampas ex dye tuh.Padan muke panjang u,gelabah je.Kan dah kene,sekarang dye nak pandang aku pon tak berani,tapi dye cakap ngan iman dye malu sebab tuh tan nak pandang aku.Pasal yang aku text dye uh dye tak balas.

  Nak tau tak habib ade kutu babi,Sumpah kelakar,kitorang gelak sampai sakit perut.Muke hensem tapi ade kutu babi.Lagi satu aku tukar url blog nih sebab aku tak nak bagi panjang bace.

  Eyjal dan kapel ngan anak model uh,melekat je,Nak muntah tgk.Minah uh asyik bekup mate unte tuh je.Aku dah malas nak amek tau.Buang air liur je,si sarah uh buat orang macam hambe dye,angkat beg dye lha,buku dye lha.Mencontohi anak model aka akak sayang dye uh lha.

 Naim dgn raihan turun kelas,lepas ank model uh kapel ngan eyjal naim dah jadi macam dulu,Naim sendiri ckp ngan atul yang bibah uh mengade2.Dye dah jadi baek macm dulu lha,aku dengan raihan still camtu,gaduh je keje.

  Pasal aniz lak aku dah lame tak contact dye,sebab dye gune mak dye nye num,aku malas nak kacau mak dye.

  Teera dgn aku dah rapat,dye cite ngan aku dye tak suke kat dayang pon sbena nye,dye mengaku dye dah liar sejak kawan dengan dayang.Dayang menyirap je sebab teera dah rapat ngan aku,bukan aku yang pakse tapi teera yang nak rapat ngan aku.Abang teera sumpah hot sesangat.Sakit jantung aku tengok abang dye.hehe

  Aku duduk ngan wahidah,kadang2 ngan iman,iman dah naek kelas tau.Tapi dok ngan iman tak ley blaja.Jadi aku ckp ngan iman aku tak ley nak dok ngan dye.Nseb bek dye paham.Harap dye tak marah lha.

  Atul ajar aku math,senang nak paham dye ajar.Kadang-kadang aku tgk akak kau,rase nak cubit-cubit je,ingat kat kau.Rindu kau dowh.Waktu rehat aku mane  makan tak selere dowh...

  kbye!!

 
Being a girl raised in house that have enough love.Maybe more than enough..I was used of being spoiled,have almost whatever I wanted.But there is a part of me is not calm，it feel like something is wrong somewhere .……I am a muslim girl，i am born with the title of a muslim.That title never bring any meaning to me before.But now it all is clear，how lucky i am to be born as a muslim，then why i have to be a muslim just on name，just by wearing hijab but never covered anything.My little brothers brought home a flyer about the right way to.wear hijab，the real meaning of hijab..but can i change from my jeans to jubah？from my shawl，turban to a hijab that really covered me……i hope i can……may Allah give me his guidance.May Allah always show me the right path towards him.Insyallah.
                 Dalam due hari lepas,aku pergi kedai cermin mata.Aku memang dah buat spec kat situ since aku darjah empat.First spec pon buat kat situ jugak.Aku pergi sane then kene pergi check.Aku still takut nak masuk dalam bilik tuh even dah selalu masuk.Rase macam pergi dentist je,mungkin kedai tu je lagi yang gune kerusi macam tu.Very old fashioned.But,i likee :)

           Then Uncle tuh cakap yang mate kanan aku dah bergerak arah.Aku pon tak faham sangat tapi aku jadi takut lah pulak dengar.Lepas ni azam nak makan carrot banyak-banyak.Err -,-

     Auntie kedai tuh sangat-sangat humble,and very down to earth.Sometimes a very complete stranger can be the most pleasant one rite?Aku memang dah set awal-awal nak spec macam mane tapi auntie tuh sangat bersungguh-sungguh layan aku,Siap tolong pilihkan warna and design last-last aku ikut je ape yang yang auntie tuh pilih.Haha,kesian kan aku.Tapi aku tak sampai hati nak cakap tak.Tapi belek-belek kat cermin cakap dalam hati oeky jugak kan,nampak macam pandai je aku pakai spec ni.Hee

  Esok spec tuh siap,jadi boleh pergi amek esok,Bye2 nak makan :))

        Too much of expectation

Will hurt many of loved ones if i can't do it        

Will broke her heart real badly

Goin to make me myself go insane                

The stupid 'WHAT IF' game keep playing like a broken record 

Keep makin me feel useless       

 Keep makin me feel like giving up

I forgotten just can't play its part here        

 I wish i have courage to deal with thisBut all i have here is just      

The cowardly me               

Kalau Aina buat camni mesti cute >,<

Dayang nak buat camni lah kan? o.0

Double of awesomeness!

Teringat Aina pernah cakap nak buat camni kan?

Nak cabar Anis buat camni,She will look smokin hit in this, goin to makr that superb hot model's daughter lose her mind xD

Can I do this to my hair?Pleaseee..

This impress me

Cute right?

Lovin'it

       Aina!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Aku takut lah nak masuk sekolah sorang-sorang.Cube kau bayang kan takde kau takde Anis.Mati lah aku.Aku takut  weyhhh

Aina macam mane ni?Aku takut gile kodd bile pikir aku kene pergi kantin sorang-sorang.pergi toilet sorang-sorang.duduk dalam kelas soarang-sorang.

  Lagi aku takut bile pikir aku kene kawan dengan anak model terkenal uh.Kalau tak pon nanti aku jadi macam Raihana.Diam je,mulut ternganga.Nanti kau jumpe aku balek kau tengok aku dah blur semacam je maksud nye aku dah berjangkit dengan Raihana lah tuh.
 Kau buat lah blog mok nanti kau tulis je pasal bende yang kau happy kau sedih nanti kite boleh otp okeyh?




                                                  I LOVETOLAUGHFORNOREASON :))




                               




  Irritated by his behavior,sick of his complaint..fell like im having a mother-inlaw and the worst part is HE is a man,,can you imagine having a man as your mother in law?Crazy huh?OMG hope this two day will not be suck as i imagine..just have to keep my finger cross :'(

 Just want to spill everything felt to him but he does't even reply my text..feel like killing him using bricks..throw bricks at him will give me alot of satisfication!!!!


Semalam pergi klinik,tunggu kemain lame lagi pastu jumpe doktor yang satu keturunan dengan Param pulak,,aku cakap dye potong,ye lha kau doktor kan,,,Saba je lha..Then dye cakap lagi due minggu kene pergi lagi untuk jumpe pakar pulak..ohsemmm :'(

Aku paling benci klinik,hospital atau yang sewaktu dengan nye..I have to go through it all again :'(

Aku dulu pernah ade history dengan sinus,and kebelakangan ini semakin teruk so ibu aku cakap jom pergi check kot-kot kanser ke,,mak macam nak jatuh jantung aku dengar ibu aku cakap camtu..doa-doa dijauh kan lah..just anggap aku kene jangkitan sinus yang teruk kan,,

Ape-ape pon kene tunggu lagi dua minggu and harap aku tak ade kene pape penyakit yang menakutkan lha,,nak kawen dulu baru boleh mati..hee.
I've been on the web from midnight until dawn for a few days now..My dad is already buzzing like a bee..yeah2.I have no idea how i can get on video vlog about some teens tell stories about their pregnancy and baby..some are horror but some was kinda sweet..I ve been watching these two young pregnant girl.Both of them are so pretty.Kinda look similiar..One of them have a easy journey,she already gave birth and now her son is two and the half year.Her baby's father is still with her,omgeeee they are the sweetest couple ever.She hot and her bf is smokin hot too..their son is superrb cute..

 The other girl was dumped by her bf because of the baby..and she got stupid prank call,harsh text and even blackmailing!But she is strong and barve..im gonna keep watching her journey..its kinda wasting my time but sorta fun:))
This song really got into me.Harsh..She explain our whole relationship in jjust a song..really got into me..




My first attempt making this,turn out not so well but can be eaten,ahaks..Bahan-bahan nak buat cupcake ni mahal lah jugak.Aku buat topping cupcake ni pakai whipping cream je,Easy to make easy to eat..huhu



  I can't understand the reason you doing all this.Why you have to force me through this all over again?Im done,im sick of it.I just have enough,don't you dare to think that you manage to make my tears fall.Oh, you are so wrong if you think im going to cry because of you.That the last thing i would do..You can harm me no more..Swallow it down deep your throat and suck it in your brain. I AM NOT GOING TO FALL FOR YOU AGAIN.Im going to do everything i could to prevent my heart getting another wound.I will make sure my heart is not exposed by you.







Thanks for all you have done for me,you make me smile,laugh,cries,im so sorry...but i've given you hell lots of second time..And each time you break your promises..i am not a saint,im telling you that...i don't know how you can tell lies but at the same time you promises me hell lot of things.I should have known this coming,,silly me huh?What do i expect,expect you to be a true Prince Charming,,well you do have charm,,i admit that,but that the only thing you have,rite??
 Maybe,tomorrow your sweet talk will make my heart melt again and i won't say a word about all this stuff but i can promise you that i did't trust you,idont have faith on you,,the simplyiest way to describe this is you dont have my trust,i will never believe anything you said or say..keep that
in your head...