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Celibate

Monday, 10 December 2012 | Monday, December 10, 2012 | 0 potion(s)

The thought of celibate have been on my mind for few days..It just make me goes crazy.Does't make any sense of being a footman before to me.My affection for him before was so deep..But it just WAS.Right now my body feel numb.My heart and brain of course.

I just can't feel the equation we used to had before.It just like we both are trying too hard to protect our own skin.Its like both of us was trying to save this liaison but in the same time we are destroying it..I used being spoiled by him. I'm eager to have that feeling once more.Maybe I was too greedy,wanting more and more..

I know that my attitude was the one that make him like this.He just too protective for himself and our liaison.Maybe to him i'm giving him gestures that make him like this,hiding in a shell hoping it will stand long enough for him to survive behind it for ever.

*If he wants you to be on his side,he'll put you there.You don't have to fight for a spot.But,what if he does't?Do you still want to fight for a spot?This is repeated again and again in my head,Its killin me.Urghh!!